I can finally declare I have a new love. I'm proud of it. I shall not be ashamed or affected by any criticism. I. Love. Jesus. Say what you what, but I can't deny it.

Started the day off with a meeting with pastor. Everyone was so unresponsive/quiet/shy. I was too. I would say morning sickness for myself but that's not a good excuse. Anyway yeah, service was good today. Every sunday doesn't go to waste, not in City Harvest at least. Had a special perfomance by some singaporean/taiwanese duo 'By2' or was it Bytwo or Bytoo. Ahh I don't know. They are so skinny it's like anorexic T_T.

Had to meet up with pastor again after service, but this time he was addressing the whole zone. Okaaay so service ended at like 2.45+ I think? Went up to level 4, but was told to come back at 3.40 for the second session. By the time we reached the coffee shop it was already 3.20 and the food came at 3.27 or 3.32, can't remember. So weird, share a plate of Nasi Ayam Penyet (I think it's spelt this way) with Seb Chu. It's like one set of cutlery, one plate and bowl of rice (one for each of us), and a plate of chicken for us to share. Hahaha, it looked weird. Anyway so the meeting was about our dressing. It's time to dress up though most of us may be 'heartlanders', but we can definitely dress like a city person. Then I was just thinking - This church is called City Harvest Church, not Heartland Harvest Church. It had a reason to it, maybe? Haha, yeah sooo I wasn't feeling very guilty during the meeting cause I believe I dress pretty well for my age already. Well except for some people who aren't used to earrings and skinny jeans, they think I'm like some NSK gangster w/e. Honestly that's called narrow-minded.

Yeah sooo had to walk over to Jurong Point to buy some stuff for my mum. I spent so much money though I'm supposed to be saving >( Well, now that I have one reason left to save things shouldn't weigh so heavily on me. And like what Ben Tan said, this is the latest we've left church on a sunday - 7pm?

Gaaaah, okay I need to get a haircut of I'll get demerit points + cwo on my holidays since there's (quoted) "Zero tolerance". Okay whatever.

Also, gonna start fasting tomorrow. Uhhhh, yeah you heard me. Like what the malays are practicing right now, which also ends on wednesday for them? I have no idea how long I'm going to fast for. Probably for however long it takes me to 'regain' back what I used to feel. So you see, I believe my life has been moving quite fast-paced these few months. Had commitments and responsibilities, lost them, and now I have new ones. Holding these responsibilities made me mature pretty much, and my life improved :D

Many people actually think that I'm like 17/18? Back to my point, when my life was having a change, it felt pretty good. But the change has stopped for awhile now, I guess. It's no longer adapting to the 'new me' which was fun, but trying to work things out... if you get what I mean. It's not exactly greedy for blessings or whatever the term is but I want to regain that attitude. Why am I saying all these anyway.

Lastly, I would like to say, welcome back Joshua :D You're out for 3 days but I'm having this dreaded exams so bleh.