^New born!^This is like the best candid photo I have hahahaha.
On a serious note, I feel that I have to say this.
Yesterday after baptism things didn't go too well. I expected the day to proceed VERY SMOOTHLY. Like I would have the time of my life.
But no, everything just spiraled down. That agony just slowly built up and well, honestly I haven't felt like that in awhile lol.
I did many many things like pray and everything, hoping for an improvement in things and that we could meet up.
But then there still wasn't any result. That was when I started to doubt God. I can't believe I did that too. I never doubted God after I gave him my life.
But yeah, nothing improved, but slowly things unravelled itself.
I realised that: Even if we went out, you'd be really tired and things won't go too smoothly. I was being selfish again, and I didn't consider how you'd have felt. I needed to study for my a math >_<
My point is, that God DOES have a reason behind everything. If we don't get what we want, there's a reason for it. God can provide us with the strength and support to do many things. But we still have to do work in order to achieve what we want in life.
Being a christian doesn't mean that we don't have to bother about what we do or how we act etc. It doesn't mean that we can turn on the 'auto-pilot' mode and relax in the back while the plane flies itself to the destination. It just means that with God, our plane is upgraded with turbo boosters thrusters which will help us reach our destination faster. We still have to control the plane, and steer safely to our destination.
Being a christian does not mean we won't face problems. We still do cause God wants us to grow stronger by tackling these problems and overcoming obstacles. When we go to heaven we should be strong right? So God is helping us become strong!
Well, baptized yesterday but my life hasn't changed... YET. Why I ask myself, it's cause I haven't done anything to change it! So yes, I started reading the book I got from my cell group last year. What happened to 'The Rule of Four' you might ask. Let's just say I'm not smart enough hahaha.
Okay. That's all for today, lol. P.S. I revived my friendster! :D
-edit- Aaaaaand I'm so bored my movies haven't finished downloading yet so I shall do a quiz from my old blog (which is SO SO SO EMO). Oh well, brings back good memories :)
Do you prefer to sleep or talk to a friend when it gets boring in class? ~ Talkkk! :D
`Do you wave hi with a smile or a serious face? ~ Depends on who I'm waving to!
`One thing that you like about your house? ~ It's cooling!
`if you were left with five months to live, what would you do? ~ Quit school and do whatever I want.
`What is your favourite brand of shoes? ~ Converseeeeee.
`The last time you cried because of someone? ~ Omg, I can't remember! :D
`Chocolate ice cream or chocolate bar? ~ Chocolate bar.
`Rudest thing you have done to your teacher? ~ This year, only ignored him :)
`What's the good thing about schooling? ~ It passes time.
`The first thought when going to tampines mall? ~ Never been there ):
`The last song you downloaded? ~ Hate this & I'll love you - Muse.
`Which part of your body is itchy and aching now? ~ My neck (same answer LOL).
`Worms or cockroaches? ~ Worms don't fly, do they? ;)
`Punk rock or slow rock? ~ Punkk!
`Yawn with your eyes open or closed? ~ Open.
`If you can have a choice, would you prefer to be friends or attached with someone you love now? ~ Whichever would help us last longer.
Who is in the house with you?:
My mum who is apparently mad at me.
Who are you thinking about now? Siran.
Who did you last talk to on the phone? The dentist.
Whose house did you last go to?: Zac.
Whose birthday is next? Someone in my Friendster's friends list named BABY. His/her birthday is today.
Who was the LAST person you loved but NOT anymore now? Hahaaaaa.
Who do you hope will take this survey?: Anyone, really.
WHATs
What was the last thing you ate?: 4 slices of cheese and chocolate. That was my breakfast and lunch ):
What was the last thing you drank? Milo.
What is the closest item near you ? Book/phone/router?
What instant messaging service do you use?: MSN.
What is your favorite color? (1 only): REDREDREDREDRED
What is your most used away message? Brb. (Duh?!)
What is your favorite website?: http://www.google.com
What is your favorite shoe brand?: Converseee :D
What song are you currently hearing?: Assasin - Muse.
WHEREs
Where do you live?: Pandan Gardens to be specific.
Where is your phone? On my book beside me! :D
Where do you sleep? On my bed? Haha.
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?: Topless :]
Where did you get this survey?: My old blog huawha.
WHEN'S
When is your birthday?: 22 December 1992
When did you last burn a candle?: YESTERDAY right after getting baptized!
When did you last see your dad?: Like 5 hours ago.
WHYs
Why does basically half the world have a Friendster? Cause the rest have myspace/facebook/hi5/multiply... (and the list goes on)
Why do we have to go to school?: To pass time.
Why are you taking this survey?: Cause I'm bored!
ONE.Spell your name without vowels: Bn.
TWO. are you single? I believe not.
THREE:what kind of music are you into? Reverted back to 'anything' :)
FOUR. What color do you wear most? BLACK.
FIVE. Least favorite colours? Bright yellow and turquoise.
SIX Last song you heard? Exo-politics - Muse.
SEVEN. Where do you wish you were? Ummm, by your side ):
EIGHT. Are you happy with your life right now? NO. But I'm changing it!
NINE. Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity: Noo )':
TEN. What is your favorite time in school? Time to go home.
ELEVEN do u shop at ambercrombie & fitch, AE? Seldom.
TWELVE. How do you go to sch? My mum sends me to school. I wonder if she'll send me tomorrow. Hmmm.
THIRTEEN. Last person you talked on the phone with? Dentist...
FOURTEEN. When do/did you start sch holidays? June/October.
FIFTEEN. Are you missing someone right now? I concur.
SIXTEEN. One word to describe you: Benong.
SEVENTEEN. Favorite pair of slippers. I WANT A NEW HAVAIANAS.
EIGHTEEN. Do you own big sunglasses? Never exactly wore them out lol.
NINETEEN. What would you rather be doing right now? Shopping ):
TWENTY. What should you be doing right now? Studying studying.
And that's what I'm going to do :)
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Called by the name Ben, he's on the same quest as everyone else. Lead by the Creator of the heavens and earth, he believes in the one and only almighty Father.
He used to spend a quarter of his life in the water, in hope of achieving swiftness and ultimate mobility in that composition H2O. Though his passion has plunged into hibernation, it is going to be awaken soon.
Currently perfecting his educational attributes in an ACS(I).
Though he has been living in this world for 16 years, his first cry was heard on the 22nd December 1992.